Hello everyone~ Remember me?
I know, I haven't really been all that active for a while now, except for faving some stuff occasionally.
The reason is that I have been going through a really bad depressed (or whatever) phase. Don't really wanna talk about it here as it's rather personal and yeah...I know I've talked about personal stuff here before, but I don't feel comfortable enough on here anymore to feel like doing that, at least not now. It's also stuff that I would rather not write out in the open for everyone to see and so far I've only told two people.
I have been more active on another website, distracting myself with rps when it was possible (because during those really, really bad phases I often feel unable to do anything, even stuff that I'd usually enjoy). I didn't really have the energy to be active on several sites, so yeah. Oh yeah, and I'm still having some kind of art block. I enjoy doing pencil sketches sometimes, but finishing a picture? Nah. It always turns out like crap anyway.
Another reason why I'm so inactive here is that I find myself enjoying dA less and less. I mean, I love all the different beautigul artworks, but apart from that... I don't like it here anymore. The admins are bullshit, the new stuff is bullshit, I don't feel safe here and it even makes me uncomfortable now to even bother come online here. It's just not what it used to be. dA used to feel like a little online home to me, but it doesn't anymore. The fact that my PM (oh, sorry, 'CM') runs out soon doesn't make it better because with all the advertisments my internet volume will always be gone in no time and I've made bad experiences with installing extern ad blockers so that isn't an option. And of course I have to admit that I just got so used to the additional features and don't want to give those up. Usually the people telling others 'You don't need those feaures duh!' are those who still have a shitload of PM or enough money to extend it. But spending actual money on this corrupt site is a huge no-no so my only option would be to earn enough by doing commissions, which is, quite frankly, impossible for me.
The three reasons why I even come back here are the pictures I mentioned and that I can't find on any other site, that I still owe people pictures, and my friends. Though I don't even really talk to them anymore really because of my ongoing inactivity. Still it seems like enough reasons to stay here, and I probably won't deactivate (yet), but all in all it doesn't feel right anymore and I only ever stay online for a few minutes.
That's it, I think. Just wanted to give an update to those of you that care.
Pictures will come in time. Can't say when though.